It has officially been nearly one and a half years since I packed up everything in Albuquerque New Mexico and moved out to sunny Los Angeles, CA in February 2013, and so far, this journeys' been…
Well, there isn’t one specific word to describe it. I could try, but there’s just too many words going through my head to try to pinpoint and use just one, but I will say one thing. Its made me think. And rethink. And rethink again. And, rethink, yet again. (Let me know if you start seeing a pattern…)
Well, there isn’t one specific word to describe it. I could try, but there’s just too many words going through my head to try to pinpoint and use just one, but I will say one thing. Its made me think. And rethink. And rethink again. And, rethink, yet again. (Let me know if you start seeing a pattern…)
It’s taken a while to do all the essentials: finding the place, the job, the classes, but I'm finally feeling (a little more) settled
into this damn town, and I've finally met many people along the way who
have helped, inspired, and shown me that this place isn’t all that bad. And I'm
starting to enjoy myself here. Weird to say, seriously.
Everyone has their opinions of LA, the people, the traffic (more like PARKING... fml.) and, of course, The Industry
Getting used to this new life of "pursuing the dream" as it is, is really odd. Since this is the place of "unlimited potential", I've found it really easy to get here and think "I need to be proactive, i need to find the class, the agent, the manager, the casting director workshop, the showcase, the singing/acting/dancing/career/life coach that will shoot me to the top."
Holy shit.
Yea, and truth be told, you can find all that here. Its odd to drive by Lee Strasburg's Theatre while going to work, or hang out at iO West and see faces you swear you've seen on TV and movies.
Yea. All stuff is out here. Everyone is out here to make it. and there are a lot of people, obstacles, and things that are going to get in the way of "pursuing your dreams". But you know what the thing that I've learned out here that has affected me most?
Get over it. ALL of it. Get over the fact you saw that guy from that show that people talk about. Get over the fact that if you don't get that scene right in class you are a fraud/hack/horriblehumanbeingcapableofartisticgenocide. Get over the fact that there are other people out here that have everything figured out about their careers (we never do) and have the perfect job and the best agent who ALWAYS sends them out for the BEST ROLES.
Seriously, please do.
Because when you do, there's a weight that is lifted off of you, and you begin to see things as they are: just Things, and People, and Choices. We put so much emphasis and weight on these things that they start to consume us, we obsess, and it starts to take a toll on our lives our relationships and our sanity, which are all things that obviously must be maintained out here. And paradoxically the more obessive we get at trying to get our work right, trying to make it absolutely perfect, to get recognition/an agent/a manager/MAKE IT, the less quality your work becomes, because it hazes the creative process, distrupts the natural flow of our work, and makes us forget why we wanted to do this in the first place: to have fun. To affect people. To make people laugh, feel, and see things differently.
Everyone has their opinions of LA, the people, the traffic (more like PARKING... fml.) and, of course, The Industry
Getting used to this new life of "pursuing the dream" as it is, is really odd. Since this is the place of "unlimited potential", I've found it really easy to get here and think "I need to be proactive, i need to find the class, the agent, the manager, the casting director workshop, the showcase, the singing/acting/dancing/career/life coach that will shoot me to the top."
Holy shit.
Yea, and truth be told, you can find all that here. Its odd to drive by Lee Strasburg's Theatre while going to work, or hang out at iO West and see faces you swear you've seen on TV and movies.
Yea. All stuff is out here. Everyone is out here to make it. and there are a lot of people, obstacles, and things that are going to get in the way of "pursuing your dreams". But you know what the thing that I've learned out here that has affected me most?
Get over it. ALL of it. Get over the fact you saw that guy from that show that people talk about. Get over the fact that if you don't get that scene right in class you are a fraud/hack/horriblehumanbeingcapableofartisticgenocide. Get over the fact that there are other people out here that have everything figured out about their careers (we never do) and have the perfect job and the best agent who ALWAYS sends them out for the BEST ROLES.
Seriously, please do.
Because when you do, there's a weight that is lifted off of you, and you begin to see things as they are: just Things, and People, and Choices. We put so much emphasis and weight on these things that they start to consume us, we obsess, and it starts to take a toll on our lives our relationships and our sanity, which are all things that obviously must be maintained out here. And paradoxically the more obessive we get at trying to get our work right, trying to make it absolutely perfect, to get recognition/an agent/a manager/MAKE IT, the less quality your work becomes, because it hazes the creative process, distrupts the natural flow of our work, and makes us forget why we wanted to do this in the first place: to have fun. To affect people. To make people laugh, feel, and see things differently.
How to overcome that? I'm still figuring that out, and I hope by starting up this blog it helps me (and who knows, maybe even you?!) figure out how this whole career thing works.
Man, this is going to be a bumpy ride but lets see if the ride is what i want.
Let's ride.
